Guys, thank you ALL for your kind messages and birthday wishes. I’m still having trouble managing my time in such a way as to be on top of things on Random Acts of Transit. I will reply to all of you (and want to, trust me!), but I just wanted to let you all know that it’s looking like a busy week or two coming up: doing subbing shifts again tomorrow (and possibly Wednesday) at the preschool where I used to work; hanging out with (and meeting in person for the first time) hishumbleservant (a friend of friends here in town); and then packing up and leaving for another 1+ week with my family, including mini-vacay at the beach in New Jersey, woohoo!
Meanwhile, there has been a lot of emotional/energetic processing on my plate, particularly after the amazing healing session I had on Friday and the cosmically timed run-in with my friend yesterday evening.
Not to mention the birthday. ;)
Or the work I’ve been diving headlong into on my memoir.
Or the trying-to-figure-out-where-to-live-next.
In other words, even though I’m technically not employed right now in any formal capacity and “work” isn’t eating up my time, there are a lot of things besides the blog demanding my focus. I love interacting with everyone on here and hope to be back to it more consistently soon.
Thanks for bearing with me. :)
Peace and love,
If ever there is a movie made about my life, there has to be a scene where, suddenly, without even realizing what I’m doing, I break into a sprint and go running down a blackened street alone on a summer night while Sylwia Grzeszczak’s “Księżniczka" plays (in the soundtrack and, it will be clear, on my earbuds). Right after I give a good-night hug to a character I knew in another body, in another lifetime, in Poland.
Przez ten mur,
Dziwnych spojrzeń których pełno tu,
Przez czerwone światła gorzkich słów
Przez miasta kłamstw
Zmuszeni biec co dnia, by poznać jedną z prawd
And as soon as I feel myself running, I feel a weight lift, and I hear myself realize, “I’m free. It’s been broken.”
Some life moments are so big, you know it immediately.
Anon, I will give you this example of something that just happened. Just tonight. It doesn’t involve my twin soul, but this is, I believe, how it works. And why I believe it works.
I was reflecting earlier this evening on all the people I’ve met in the past year who don’t know how much they’ve helped me, how deeply they’ve helped me to heal, how much their appearance in this lifetime has meant to me. Not that I wouldn’t want to tell them, but that sometimes, it’s just courteous to be respectful of how much you share with people about your intuitive awareness. That is, sometimes, in order to express the fullness of your gratitude, you’d have to express more than they really need to hear, more than they could understand or should be left to deal with. It’s very hard to suppress this kind of gratitude and joy. Very, very hard.
So I was thinking about how the only way to fully express my gratitude to any of them would be to meet with them and thank them in spirit, tell them EVERYTHING there. Because in spirit, they already know. In spirit, they completely understand. In spirit, they can hear, and nothing need be left unsaid. All love and admiration can be expressed.
I didn’t even take the time to do this; I just envisioned myself doing it and contemplated the intention of meditatively doing it later.
Minutes after I wrote about this feeling, this inner conflict of mine, I received a message from one of these people. He had NO IDEA that I was thinking of him. No idea that I wanted to thank him or was thinking about meeting with him in spirit. He just reached out to me.
What’s more, minutes after I received his message, I ran into him on the street.
And we stopped and chatted, a very serious conversation, for quite a while. In some ways, during that conversation, I was able to express my gratitude and unconditional support for his being. I won’t get into how I was able to do this because the conversation was personal, but I’ll just say that I felt very grateful to have been able to meet him on the street and have that conversation with him at this point in time. And he expressed his gratitude for the fact that he ran into me as well. It was mutually significant.
I am telling you, love, gratitude, and loving intention — they move things. They heal things. They are irrepressible, unstoppable energies, and they are the very fabric that holds all of life together. They are what connect everything and everyone, no matter how much distance or time or human-level disregard might seem to stand between them.
Remember: distance is an illusion. Separation is an illusion. We are all one, right here, right in one place. What you are is what anyone else is, on the deepest level, one same essence. You can ABSOLUTELY communicate with… yourself. You are not separate. There is no space between. There never was. And it is entirely natural to do this.
When you try to communicate soul-to-soul, sometimes the miracles might seem small. But you can believe that they are happening.
Just try. Work with love. It’s yours to work with, and it’s the greatest force in all of existence. :)
Thank you! :)