I regularly smile at the things I can't explain. Life is a Divine Comedy. There's a whole lot more I could say about what I am and the workings of my mind, but I'm pretty sure you're gonna figure it out on your own.
On this blog, you'll be getting a little bit of everything.
Hope that's what you like. :)
20th May 2013
Notes: 11
I mean, I’m sure he still would’ve accomplished awesome things, but what if He was like, “Sorry, man, I can’t revive your brother until… ehhh, I could get there probably about 6:30? I’ve just got this report here right now, and my boss is gonna be so mad if it’s not ready on time, and… yeah”
or
“Oooh, gotta put in for some vacation time so I can go off and give some sermons and heal some people over yonder. Really hope work gives me these weeks off.”
Life is happening ALL the time. Teaching and healing are needed ALL the time. Not just on the margins of a standard workweek, the cushion of “free” time you’ve earned from your supervised labors, under people who don’t give a shit about your real gifts, goals, passions, or purpose.
… does anybody else ever think about this, or is it just me?
I know it’s frustrating to recognize your blockages and still feel unable to release them. But the truth is that recognizing them is a part of releasing them. Before, you didn’t even recognize them or realize they were there. Now, they are close enough to the surface that you can see them. Eventually, as they get lighter and lighter, they will float, float, float, until they can be washed away. Just keep making them “lighter” — fill them with light. :)
You are closer than you think you are to the healing your heart intends.
The heart is at the center of your being for a reason. The heart chakra, for much the same reason, finds itself at the center of the seven traditional chakras. You have noticed, its symbol contains the six-pointed star. Two triangles, an upward-pointing and a downward-pointing. These join, balanced. So it is with the heart chakra. It is more than the bridge between the “spiritual” focus and esoteric matters of the upper chakras (all chakras’ associated life areas and experiences are spiritual — no action or experience is not) and the lower, Earthly survival-focused chakras. It is the place from which your life’s blood is pumped, your vital essence circulates.
Love drives your entire being. Love is life’s “blood.”
Your heart chakra, if in balance, can very naturally bring the others into equilibrium. Yes, you can have a very strong heart chakra and still experience issues with the others. But what are blockages other than fear? And what does fear block other than the free flow and expression of love? And what is the heart chakra’s domain?
Love. Of course.
It is true; love circulates throughout one’s entire being. There is no place that love isn’t. There are only places that love isn’t seen.
And it’s also true that we are applying symbols here, and they may seem rather arbitrary. Who said love was associated with the heart? Why not elsewhere? Well, you — all — chose such symbols. And as you intend and design it, it is, and you experience it. But ask yourself, do you not, when you feel love pouring from or into your being, sense that warmth, that vital energy buzzing at your heart chakra?
Working with the other chakras is valuable. You can discover the nature of your blockages, or you can channel more intention/energy into particular areas of your life in order to create certain types of experiences.
But when you are feeling stuck, and you don’t know where to go to release the blockages, why not just go to the heart?
Does not your whole being feel better when you channel energy there or sit with thoughts of love?
Yes. Love is the answer, the key, and the cure.
I have had energetic grounding (and particularly root chakra) issues for a VERY long time. But I think I’ve recently figured out a new way to address them, and, for me, the results have been pretty awesome so far. So this is a personal healing story which I will share just in case it might help anybody else. Kind of a long read, so my hope is that it provides a LOT of food for thought. May you find in it some useful points of reflection, and I wish you the very best on your healing journey. May it be filled with peace, joy, and light. :)
TW: there is some mild discussion in here of sexual violence. Nothing graphic, but please only read if you are comfortable with reflecting on the links between sex, sexual violence, and the chakras.
My tone on Tumblr is usually conversational, accented with interludes of unintentionally pedantic-sounding philosophizing, and my posts are not usually well edited. The shocking truth though is that I actually like writing and try to write serious stuff sometimes (and edit it!) outside of Tumblr. I like writing so much, in fact, that I’m working on a memoir. It was originally going to be kind of a standard twenty-something memoir, but my life took a drastic turn for the unusual, so, yeah, over time, we had to scrap those original plans and accept the fact that it was going to be sprinkled heavily with the cosmically comical, the highly improbable, and the simply bizarre.
And that’s most of what you get on here — I wax enthusiastic on the cosmos and the inevitable manifestation of its “improbabilities.”
But this excerpt I’ll share tonight is different. It doesn’t really include any of those things. It’s from a time when my life juuuuust started getting trippy. From a moment of calm. One of those moments in life when you have recently discovered that, Oh, look! — there’s actually a wound here, and it’s been bleeding for a VERY long time. Sometimes there are moments of peace in your deepest pain and your most opaque confusion. Exquisitely fragile, sacred moments when you can sit simultaneously with the pain and the peace in equally strong doses — and start sensing your own strength.
That’s what this is about. A time in that ached. And a mundane moment of peace in the sadness. I’m still not sure where this fits into my book because it’s a scene involving no plot development, more of a psychological snapshot, rather. Perhaps I Just felt compelled to write it because I’m a bit of a hedonist, and this moment hit all the senses.
Why was I inspired to put this on here? A good friend of mine — a fellow Tumblr presence who goes by kindness330 — posted something on facebook just earlier about chilling with incense and wanting friends to be around him. He’s, by far, the biggest fan of my as-yet-non-existent book, and he has been a source of many smiles over the years.
To my friend — whom I met about a month after the setting of this scene — thank you. Here’s a peek into the book in your honor. ;)
When you see through the illusion, you realize that nothing needs to be destroyed. And that you, yourself, are an exquisite, indestructible, divine being, so nothing has ever “destroyed” you at all.
So nothing “destroys you.” What threatens you though, is fear. But while fear may speak — while it may threaten — it’s important to remember that fear never communicates the truth. How can we be so sure of this? Because fear is illusion, the illusion created by your confusion.
Think about it: what are we afraid of? The things we don’t understand. When we don’t understand something, it means that we are confused. So fear is just a sign that you’re confused. Confused about what? About who and what you actually are. Because if you understood who and what you truly were, you’d never be bothered by fears.
Fear, then, is simply the “darkness,” the shadows, the places where the light of awakening is obstructed. The good news here though is that you can never shine darkness into light — it’s impossible, so light can never be truly “contaminated” or weakened by the “addition” of darkness. You can’t actually add darkness to anything. But you can always shine light into darkness! So you can trust fully that illumination will always, ultimately, triumph. Hooray! You see? :)
This means that you must be willing to let that line shine in the places where fear remains. How? Take out your “flashlight,” go get in there, and snoop around. In other words, fear is what serves to draw your attention to those places where you need to get serious about exploring your own heart and shining that light.
All fear really tells you — through its symbolic language — is parts of yourself that you haven’t begun allowing yourself to love just yet. And once you figure out where the love was lacking and how to fix that (answer: just love), then you realize how indestructible you are.
If what your fear is telling you, is anything other than how to love yourself more fully, then you haven’t looked closely enough at it. Because if you face it down long enough, that’s what you’ll see it’s been telling you.
(And by “facing it,” I don’t mean trying to torture yourself by creating the circumstances you have been fearing; I literally mean just deciding to turn your attention on it and looking at it. Just sitting with the idea that creates such anxiety in your heart. Reflecting on it. Doing energy healing or writing or praying or uncensored soliloquies about it. And so on.)
If you perceive your fear to be telling you anything else — that you’re messed-up, or unworthy, or broken, or damaged, or hopeless, or lost — then you’re not looking closely enough. Those are not truths. If you’re still seeing genuine fear, or if it feels like your fears are demanding anything that you, at your most peaceful, would not be inclined to do (be that lashing out at another person, or lashing out at yourself or at a something in your life), then you’re not seeing through yet to the truth. And that’s okay; just keep looking at the fear until you do see the truth.
How will you know you’ve seen the truth? You’ll feel radiant with bliss. With peace. Grateful for your new levels of self-knowledge. Perfectly safe and valuable and limitless. Filled with love. Unconditional and unreserved self-love included.
There is no need for you to destroy anything. You are safe. Just resolve to face your fears, interrogate them, and observe… as they cede to the light that you are.
(Source: orgasm)
Reblogged From lovetofeel
