This has been a most extraordinary day.

"We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls."

― Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 7: 1966-1974 (via zingara84)

* a quote Past-Life Friend shared with me.  I’m glad it’s catching on.  ;)


Why should we all use our creative power and write or paint or play music, or whatever it tells us to do?

Because there is nothing that makes people so generous, joyful, lively, bold, and compassionate, so indifferent to fighting and the accumulation of objects and money. Because the best way to know the Truth or Beauty is to try to express it. And what is the purpose of existence Here or Yonder but to discover truth and beauty and express it, i.e., share it with others?

— Brenda Ueland — If You Want to Write

Since about a year ago, when I close my eyes and just allow a plant name to come to me spontaneously, I frequently get “hyssop” as the answer.  I’ve known nothing about this, but I picked some up today.  I looked it up thereafter.  Pretty interesting properties:  it’s used for “purification,” in the sense of helping to relieve users of guilt and the vague, gnawing fear that they’ve done something “wrong” and need to be forgiven.  Sounds intriguing, especially because, when I slip into states of panic, I’m always worried that I’ve done something vaguely and indefinably wrong (hell if I know what it is) and am about to be smited with some form of retribution.  I also started crying during my Reiki 2 attunement three years ago right after clairaudiently hearing the words “Let the guilt go.”  Hyssop apparently helps impart a sense of absolution/release from the illusion of guilt.

I also saw it in a book on practical healing with essential oils, and it’s listed as a hair loss cure too.  Which is helpful, since I’ve been losing hair for about ten years.

Here’s to working with hyssop!

Anybody else know anything about spiritual properties of hyssop?

Anonymous Asked
QuestionWhat happens when the "runner" side of a TF starts pulling hard on the cords of energy that connect you? When the "runner" watches you all the time from afar but has too many demons to allow them to return to you? Answer

Well, to be honest, I’m sorry but I’m not sure I understand what you mean by “what happens?”  I don’t necessarily think there’s anything formulaic that happens.  But the way you’ve worded your question makes it sound like this is something you experience intensely and which makes you uncomfortable.

If you feel your twin’s energetic presence, you ALWAYS have the right to tell them that their presence is not welcome at the moment.  I believe that everyone’s absolute highest self has the highest intentions, but there are some who may disagree with me and who might attribute ill intent or selfish intent to higher selves.  I won’t try to convince you one way or the other of what’s going on.

Remember that anytime we’re pointing a finger and saying,  HE/SHE is not ready; I’m just so much further along than my twin — the ego within is having a bit of a gloating moment.  It’s not “wrong” to recognize your twin’s particular brand of challenges, to have an idea of what kind of lessons your twin is working on (even people who are NOT energetically sensitive generally have a pretty good idea of other people’s areas for needed growth, so all the more likely that you’re tuning into things accurately when you’re sensitive and the person is that spiritually connected to you).  However,  remember always to avoid judgement; just respond to your perception of your twin’s needs with compassion, and feel free to say supportive prayers for your twin’s healing and progress along his/her path.  But consider saying your prayers in the first-person plural; that is, pray in the sense of “us,” that “we” may overcome “our” lessons and heal what “we” need to heal.  (There’s always SOME help and SOME healing you could benefit from, right?)  That helps to remind yourself that you’re on complementary paths and working through blockages together.  And when you remember that you’re working through challenges alongside one another (even if apart), that also erases some bitterness.

Anyway, what’s really important here is, if you know that your twin has things to work through and can sense that now is not the time for a reconnection, and you suspect that interacting with your twin would involve a lot of emotional work, drain you, and ultimately that his/her self-work is not your responsibility (and you’re right that it’s NEVER your responsibility), then just honor that feeling.

Something to ask yourself:

  • What might be the “point” in your human self feeling the connections at this moment?  Is there something to be reflected upon or learned?  (Context generally clarifies this for us.)

Some things you can do:

  • Just have a conversation with your twin’s soul about how you’re feeling and how the “open” energy channels (whereby you’re sensing him/her so clearly) are affecting you.  Tell his/her soul what boundaries you would prefer.  (I’ve mentioned this on my blog before, but I outright told my twin’s soul once when he surprised me in a healing session and acted like he wanted to talk that I was not ready to speak to him at that time because I wanted to figure things out for myself.  And his energy 100% respected that.  And the following months and years proved that I had in no way destroyed the actual connection between us — that bond is pure, unconditional love, and pure, unconditional love is indestructible.  So NEVER be afraid of setting healthy boundaries for yourself.)
  • If you prefer, you can talk to your guardian angels, his/her angels, Archangel Michael, etc. to say a prayer/set an intention for psychic shielding.  Not that you need to be shielded from anything “bad,” just that you’re calling on them to fortify your aura against distracting influences from your twin’s energy.  You can add the qualifier that you’re open to communications at any time from your twin soul that would be in the highest good.  So, there, you have celestial backup, sort of like a team of chaperones to keep you feeling undisturbed.  :)
  • Try an aura-shielding exercise/meditation/intention yourself, and add any qualifiers (about what types of contact you will allow) that feel relevant.

Hope this helps, Anon, and that you and your twin are doing well.

Peace and love!

Anonymous Asked
QuestionLaura, how do you suppose a living person's spirit is able to visit loved ones from a distance? It is the higher self that does the actual visiting, in which the conscious, human mind, has no recollection of? Have you ever done this yourself? Answer

Okay, sorry that this won’t be the most articulate response, but I wanted to reply to this now, even though my thoughts are scattered lately (upcoming trip has me all over the place). Hope it’s still easy to follow and answers your question, but feel free to write back if not! :)

I’m of the mind that the reality is spirit, and the sovereign force is love. That when you set an intention with love, surrendering the ultimate outcome to the highest good, love follows that intention as far as and in the direction that the highest good would have it go. True love will not override anyone’s heart’s barriers. So I don’t think you can “overwhelm” a person or frighten or harm them with love energy either.

I’m not sure where I got this idea from, but I’ve been “trying” to communicate with loved ones from a distance since I was a kid. I say “trying,” because I essentially just leave the success of the contact up to the Divine. I used to (and still often do) entreat guardian angels to assist, so perhaps I got the idea in a book on angels. Or maybe from reading about the aura. I can’t remember.

Anyway, I think that, as our soul energy is always aware and experiences far fewer limitations than our human selves do, it is easily also able to contact its associates in Spirit — your soulmates, if you will, or teachers, guides, angels, etc. Remember, there is more to you than what animates the body. Basically, you are All That Is. So the idea, then, that your soul can do things that your human self cannot is very easy to grasp. :)

If you attempt contact from a surrendered state, you allow for the possibility that the other person might not be aware of the contact ever, or at the time you are intending that — and you surrender respectfully to the fact that they will only “hear” from you, psychically or synchronistically, when it is for the very best.

In my experience, soul contact from a distance often manifests as a synchronicity. Sometimes contact has been consciously attempted, and yet, other times, the person has NOT tried to contact you, nor you them. But the “signs” that your souls are trying to communicate (or have succeeded in doing so) are the same: you or they see a doppelganger; when you speak with one another later, you find that you got the same mental image or the idea of the same metaphor (to illuminate a spiritual epiphany) at the same time; a significant song comes on and they reach out to you thereafter; evidence of your social connectedness arises (e.g., a new mutual friend is made by one or the other on Facebook, or in real life); etc.

In one memorable experience of mine, I did NOT attempt contact with someone on that occasion, but I was in the middle of a healing session, and his soul tended to visit when I was engaged in healing work or treatments. He arrived on that occasion as a memory, at first; my mind drifted to a memory, but then suddenly, while I was lost in the memory, he looked into my eyes, smiled, and said something he’d never said in real life: ”I gave you a map.”

The message filled me with a feeling of love and gratitude. It was symbolic, his soul telling mine that it was guiding me, even though I thought I was alone. I felt his presence with me for some time after his spirit said he’d given me a map. Then I thought, “Well, that was sweet, but let’s not read into it.”

But later that same day, someone enthusiastically encouraged me to go to an exhibition — of maps. Then handed me a brochure — and the front of the brochure was the image of a map.

I’m almost CERTAIN this (living) person did not try to contact me in that moment. I’m also almost certain that his human self never intended to be a guide for me or an ally in my healing work.

And yet, that happened.

So I chalk that up to the soul. Yes, you could call it the higher self or the soul, the part of you that does this.

And remember that Earth, while very real, is also helpful to conceptualize as a lucid dream, or a VR playground/classroom. So if your soul intends something your heart or mind fixes on a particular person, feeling, concept, and so on, the soul energy that you are has absolutely NO PROBLEM creating an “echo” of that intention, some manifestation or other, in your human experience. This is also so easy on the level of the spirit because we are all one. So we are all, always, connected.

The world is always just as small as it needs to be. ;)

Anonymous Asked
QuestionAfter meeting my tf, so many issues came to the surface and I'm in a dark night of the soul period trying to work through all the emotions that have risen. One of my persisting problems is a lack of self-worth. I *know* how amazing I am, logically, but I rarely FEEL it. The love I have for my tf, I cannot recreate for myself. I now know unconditional love, but don't know how to feel it for myself. Any advice? Answer

This IS a tough one, and I’m not sure why.  I also recognize that it should be so simple.  I’m sure you’ve heard that meditation could help, but here are some other ideas:

  • Twins see themselves in one another.  Reflect on EVERYTHING about your twin that you love and admire and/or just found generally endearing (like a quirk, or a feature that you always hated about yourself but got lost in, in them), and write that down.  Then look at that list, and remind yourself that you already have and you already are all of that.

  • Take a few moments of your day while meditating just to turn your focus to the love you feel.  Let it envelop you.  You don’t have to direct the energy toward any particular intention.  Just allow yourself to sit with that love (in peace and gratitude), and let love’s energy do what it will.  Of all the healing energies, love is primary and needs no initiation; we all “have” it because we all ARE it, and we can all “work with” it naturally, for free, with no instruction.  Furthermore, spiritual love — unconditional and non-attached — is absolutely respectful of all boundaries and asks ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in return, so you don’t need to worry about love disrupting any sort of interpersonal/karmic/energetic balance or concern yourself with ethical questions, as might arise with some other healing arts.  Just giving yourself time to sit with love energy will help you.

  • One way to grow in your love and respect for yourself is simply to start honoring the stirrings of your heart.  If you’re not following your heart, start tuning into it, asking it what it wants, and letting it guide you.  A lot of insecurities and disappointments fall away, a lot of clarity is reached regarding old wounds and limitations, as you build a life on the heart as a foundation.  It sounds weird, but think about it:  by choosing what your heart tells you to do, you are showing yourself that your innermost self is WORTHY of your own investment, attention, acknowledgement, and respect.  As you make choices by your heart, and start seeing how much happier you are as a result, you will grow in appreciation for your being — your inner wisdom, the gifts you have to offer to this world, etc.

  • Love is a two-way street.  Love flows in and out at the same time.  Be mindful of whether you are expressing love to others freely, and accepting the gift of loving attention and connection that life is offering you, in turn.  It’s easier to feel love within when you cultivate love without as well, and when you allow love to come in from other sources.  I’m not saying, “Date people you don’t want, and destroy your own boundaries.”  But I am suggesting that sometimes, people with self-love struggles, are very good at giving and don’t allow themselves to receive any of the stuff that they are giving so generously to others.  Part of feeling loved and lovable is in simply allowing yourself to be given ”love,” broadly defined.  Because the universe is trying to do this for you, anyway, all the time; human beings are just the metaphorical forms it uses to explore this experience.

  • So, on that note, recognize that love is everywhere, all the time, and you are part of the cosmic perfection.  So maybe start with just feeling genuine love for the fact that you are ALIVE.  Feel love for your EXPERIENCE.  After all, “you” are an experience, not a finite thing.  There is no self to reject.

Hope this helps, Anon.  Sending you peace and much, much love!

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

Anaïs Nin (via heyfranhey)

A professor shared this quote with me on the day I told her I was leaving my Ph.D. program.  Couldn’t have been more perfect.  :)

(Source: itsquoted)

When we are indoors, we are in enclosed spaces, spaces charged already with the energy of the people who inhabit or frequent those places.  This energy keeps circulating for quite a while and can take some effort to change, neutralize, or clear.

However, the outside world is limitless and filled with elements that, in shamanism, are believed to cleansing: fresh air; rain; natural processes of decomposition/recycling; salt (in the case of the ocean); SPARKLING, LIFE-GIVING LIGHT; and so on.  The natural world is basically, in the greater scheme of things, self-balancing.

Not only that, but all places connect with all other places.  Wind, water, dust can travel from one part of the world to another, recycling themselves over the eons.  The same moon and sun shine down upon everyone, in any hemisphere, witnessing the lives and absorbing the energies of all who have lived at any point in history.  I even read in a book once (by John Perkins) that shamans in Ecuador believe that rocks themselves can be messengers:  you can impart a message to one rock, and it will, once placed on the ground, conduct the message energetically to other rocks, along a figurative chain, until the message finally reaches the other human being who stands — somewhere else on this planet — on what is, ultimately, the very same ground.

It is all one.  It is all connected.  The bodies our souls animate are literally made of this majestic planet

Sometimes, for these reasons, it can be easier to feel connected with your loved ones and all other creatures — and filled with cosmic love for no particular “reason” — when you are outdoors.

Think of all the love songs that instinctively pick up on this – songs that mention energies and messages carrying across the ocean, or being scattered on the moonbeams, to be picked up by a distant loved one.  Our souls know that this world connects us all, across time and space.  Think, too, about how enthralled young children can be with nature – talking to trees and animals, playing in mud and sand and water, smiling rapturously at flowers, collecting rocks.  In the industrialized world, children are much more keyed-in to the magic of the natural world than adults are.  Keyed-in to a magical interconnectedness and oneness that are real; it is as we grow older and are socialized to limit our thinking that we silence much of this intuitive awareness.

So if you’re endeavoring a meditation with the aim of connecting, in love, to someone – someone who is living in body or who is now living only in spirit – consider taking your “meditation” outside.

  • Pick a special place.  Any place will do, sure, but a place that has been significant to both of you is already charged with your mutual energies, which can assist in connecting your souls.  Perhaps, even, you’ll just find yourself spontaneously drawn to do this someplace somewhere someday — which means that the place has chosen you.  :)
  • Give gratitude to the place for having written itself into your story.  Take a few moments to just enjoy the energy of the place itself and offer it your thank-yous.
  • Talk to the place about this person you’d like to reconnect with; if the place is mutually significant, it already holds a timeless imprint of this person’s energy, and you can consider the spirit of the place itself to be a friend to both of you.
  • As you talk to the place, allow yourself to fill with love and gratitude for the person.
  • Tell the place what you’d like the person to know, or even just communicate to the place your intention to send love energy to this person, through the essence of the place itself.  Ask that the place, if it be in the highest good, convey this message/energy to your loved one at the perfect time.
  • Say any relevant prayers for the healing, peace, joy, guidance, etc. of the soul of the person whose energy you would like the spirit of the place to assist in connecting with.  Feel free to whisper or sing these intentions to the sky, to trace the message with your finger on the ground, to breathe these into the wind.  Make your message one with nature.
  • Say a prayer for the well-being of the place itself, including a prayer that others may, themselves, come to the same place in the future and offer their own admiration, love, gratitude, and joy and create happy moments and memories there – or that the place be left in peace.  Whatever the place seems to intend.
  • Relax there, steeped in a mutual exchange of love, for as long as feels right.
  • When you rise to leave, thank the place again.
  • Some cultures have the custom of leaving a gift for the place.  If you have a piece of fruit, some crumbs for the birds, a bit of water, etc., that you can leave on the ground, this is lovely!  Alternatively, as your gift, you can clean up a small area of the place and remove any “waste” that has accumulated there.  (Be safe about this though, of course – no need to place yourself in harm’s way in the process.)  And if neither of these gestures feels right to you at the time, of course, you always have the gift of love itself and prayers which you can offer and the place will very much appreciate.

I spent a lot of time in nature as a little kid, and even as an adult, I returned to what natural settings were available to me in moments when I needed to ground or wanted to send energy / love / messages / healing across the distance.  If you go to nature regularly as part of your spiritual practice, some benefits you might experience can include:

  • A deeper sense of connectedness with nature and interconnectedness with all that is.
  • Grounding, which is useful for calibrating your soul’s energies to the Earth, for work with manifesting and striking an optimal balance between energy intake, assimilation, and release.  Grounding is also beneficial in the sense that stronger roots are helpful for optimal growth.
  • The natural world, as it becomes more familiar to you, might yield its wisdom to you by way of imprinting you with metaphorical insights, unfolding beautiful lessons for you that reveal the cosmic harmony and the manifestation of the macro in the micro (can be very life-affirming to see the world in this way).
  • A sense of unconditional love – the Earth gives herself to us for our own creation, including the creation of our very bodies.  She does not reject us, no matter what we might have done in error.  We are a part of nature itself, and every element of nature is steeped in unconditional love.
  • A growing awareness of and appreciation for the “simple things.”  When you recognize what absolute beauty there is in a simple blossom, or what purity there is in a bee, or grace there is in a spider, or majesty there is in a cloud, or freedom there is in a breeze, or rejuvenation there is in a raindrop – there is no limit to Earth’s beauty – you will grow in your embodied awareness of the fact that life’s greatest gifts don’t come in boxes, shipped to stores on trucks, nor do they demand your paycheck.  They are free, constantly cycling and recycling, and best enjoyed in a non-attached manner.  All that is required for you to enjoy the best of Earthly life is simply to recognize that YOU ARE ALREADY ONE WITH IT.

Much peace and love to you and yours, my friends!

Anonymous Asked
QuestionHi! Do you think twin souls can have karma with one another to clear out? I'm in the midst of the "dance" of coming back together and separating with my twin, and each time we (briefly) reunite new issues come up. It *feels* like karma coming to the surface, but could also be just a highlight of what we still need to work through. Thoughts? Thanks! Answer

Fun question!  Karma with one another?…  Hmm, you mean that they might’ve known one another in another lifetime and had karma with one another from then?  Or that they need to clear out karma with others that influences their own connection?

I don’t often distinguish between the karma that twins might have within their own bond vs. the karma their joint soul has accumulated with others, as it all would have to be cleared eventually.  And I also think that a lot of the fears that twins face when looking at one another is a reflection of the karma they have in general.  Remember what karma is; karma represents the consequences of your current perspective and how the illusions we have not yet cleared are still influencing and shaping our experience.  When we are fully awakened, illusion is not such a factor anymore.  So, essentially, as the reunion of twins represents the coming back into/unto oneself, then their attempts at a merger with one another are a reflection of the soul’s attempt at “coming home” to what it truly is.  Meaning that, in the process, illusions and related karmic issues naturally rise to the surface, to our attention.  In the end, it’s probably not so important who/what the catalyst is; the various facets of the process seem inseparable from one another.

Is this making sense?  I just wrote that quickly without thinking carefully about how I was explaining it, but I’ll leave it that way for now, and you can get back to me if you feel like it needs further explanation.  :)

Regarding karma with one another, it’s very possible.  For example, healer once told me that my twin’s soul had (in a relatively recent past life) been incarnate within me as the child I was carrying and then miscarried him under incredibly traumatizing circumstances.  This felt very, very plausible when she told it to me, and I noticed that a LOT of very early fears I’d had regarding having him in my life started making sense.  And if this had been true, it may have been affecting how I responded to him and chose to deal with him at the beginning.  I’ve also started seriously wondering whether he was incarnate as another mysterious figure who’s arisen (and mysteriously disappeared) in nightmares that a past-life friend and I have both had.  And if he was this person in that lifetime also, then that, too, explains a little bit more about our dynamic.

These examples, basically, are the extent of my experience with thinking about past-life karma within the twin connection.  But I still haven’t worried too much about it.  It’s all one soul playing all the roles on the stage that is this world anyway.  :)

Don’t worry about “who” you have karma with.  I was never a person to reflect much on karma until just this past year, when it started working itself out in a very naked fashion right in front of my eyes.  And if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that we are working it out all the time, and where reconnections with specific people are crucial to that process, life is making sure to connect us in inescapable ways (e.g., you both come from countries thousands of miles away from one another, and somehow, you end up living right next door to one another in the same hostel in Shanghai).  Bottom line:  if your soul has karma with another soul, and your souls are interested in working it out specifically with one another, you will arrange for this to happen, so you aren’t going to “miss” any critical chances.  :)

No, wait, let me tell you a second thing about karma too!

The balancing force in this universe is love.

Love is what heals everything.

It never needs to be an eye for an eye, you never need exchange pain for pain, no matter how great that pain might have been.

Just keep an open heart and let love do its thing.

Peace and love, Anon, and thanks for the question!  Wishing you and your twin and all your soul companions much love, joy, light, clarity (that you may understand, all, how amazingly wonderful you are and what a beautiful story you’re writing here!), and healing!